It kills me to know that you belong to someone else at this moment.
I don’t know if I would be able to find “someone better”
or if I would be able to give all my heart and trust like I did to you.
At this very instant, I wish I could be laying on your chest, like I would always do. I miss listening to your heart beating, and air running out of your nostrils.
I wish I could stay up after midnight talking on the phone with you like we would always do. I miss the silence that filled my ears as we ran out of things to say. The sound of your heavy breathing as you fell asleep, that too, I miss.
At this moment, I fill as if something must have gotten stuck in my throat causing a burn, that happened after I kept myself from crying.
I miss you holding my hand, rubbing your thumb against mine, and against my palm.
I miss having you go through my window, setting foot in my room,
giving me a tight hug because we have not seen each other.
I miss your big strong arms, your beautiful thighs I love so much.
Your stunning smile, gorgeous little eyes, and my most favorite small, soft, tender lips that drive me crazy every time I would lay my lips against them.
I miss having your head leaning on my thighs, while I stroke your hair, or kissed your hair and neck.
Now, I can only dream.
I can see you no more, but I can be with you in my dreams. In the pictures we once took, the memories we’ve left.
I just really hope you know,
that I love you very much with all my heart
that once belonged to you.
That I miss you quite terribly; much more than I would normally do.
Know that I have not given my heart to anyone else.
I still cry at night, not because of you,
but because I know that I can’t have
you in my arms anytime soon, or have our lips combine as one.